Hello there! My name is Rachel (she/her/xe/xem). I’m from Singapore and I work as a graphic designer. I was diagnosed with autism when I was 20 (I’m in my 30s now). Before that, I was diagnosed with selective mutism (I prefer the term “situational mutism”), ADHD and OCD as a child and teen.
I grew up feeling like I wasn’t worth shit. People treated me like I was a defective human being, and for a long time, I thought I had to cure or overcome my “deficits” in order to be seen as an actual person.
When I was in my 20s, I learnt about the neurodiversity paradigm and social model of disability, and realised that there was nothing wrong with me all along. Since then, I’ve been working on accepting myself as I am.
I started Autistic As Fxxk because I don’t want other Autistic folks to feel the way I did when I was young. Through my content, I aim to explore ways to find your own path in a neurotypical world while being unapologetically Autistic.
Follow me and raise your middle finger to neuronormativity! 🖕🖕🏿🖕🏾🖕🏽🖕🏼🖕🏻
My special interest
- Mike Patton (I love his voice so much)
- Danny Elfman
- 80s-90s alternative music (Mr. Bungle, Faith No More, Depeche Mode, Oingo Boingo, Talking Heads, Siouxsie and the Banshees…)
- Bass guitar
Check out my last.fm profile to see what I’m listening to!
- Graphic design
- Old & indie web (I’m obsessed with Neocities websites)
- Goth fashion & makeup
- Marvel (My favourite superhero is Daredevil)
- Star Wars
- Pedro Pascal
About this website
“Why does this website look so… unusual?”
The design of this website is inspired by old-school websites (think GeoCities) from the 90s and early 2000s.
I miss the aesthetic of those websites. They had so much personality and charm, unlike websites today that are bland and templatised with bloated code full of unnecessary crap.
I also chose the old web aesthetic to complement the DIY punk spirit of Autistic As Fxxk. 🧷✊
This website is 100% hand-coded by me (i.e. no WordPress, Squarespace, Wix, etc.) and built with Hugo!
Email, guestbook and under construction GIFs from GifCities.